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Procrastination, Self Sabotage and Other Bad Things…

Procrastination, Self Sabotage and Other Bad Things…

Procrastination, Self Sabotage and Other Bad Things…

I joined the Grand Rapids YMCA two months ago. I just went for the first time (after 3 payments of $55) yesterday. My school of thought about exercise regimens has always been, “Do not turn up for Pilates class until you have lost 5 pounds or are an expert at Pilates.” I wouldn’t want to start an exercise class without being in tiptop shape or the best in show, right? It doesn’t matter that I am paying for my empty spot. Nor that I am not seeming to drop the weight or practice in preparation… Hence putting off starting at all.

I Have My Reasons

Whenever I have tried to institute a positive life change, like quitting drinking for example, I have this thing I do. It’s not just that I put it off. I am a pleasure seeker, so I will always hesitate before I do anything hard. It’s that I also feel the need to stockpile bad stuff the night or nights before I do the positive thing.


When I go on a diet, I eat everything fattening I can think of – even if I don’t want it – the night before. The many times I tried to quit drinking, I would swill a death defying amount of booze the prior evening. When you think about it, that is the definition of self-sabotage. For two reasons. One, you are telling yourself that the “bad thing” is going to be so missed you have to stay up all night to overindulge it one last time. Like that vacation, Italian lover the night before you leave for Kansas and your old, dull life…


Two, you set yourself back by loading up on the bad thing. Starting to quit drinking with a hangover may seem like an inspirational thing to do. But all you want the morning after a last-call binge is a Bloody Mary. If I eat a cake in toto, I wake wanting more cake. See what I mean?


Don’t Let This Happen to You

Maybe no one else on earth stockpiles, but I know a lot of people procrastinate. Don’t let this happen to you. And don’t glamorize the bad thing by having one last fling. Especially the night before a cleanse. And don’t put off the inevitable. I turned up at the Y and I was not the blue ribbon, best in the Pilates class. But I was not the worst one either. And it’s not a contest.


Just turn up.


Today I’m not drinking because I am turning up, fresh as a daisy, for the tough stuff (whether I’m the best or ready or not)…

How come you’re not drinking?


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Comments (4)

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    Tall Girl
    Jan 9, 2017

    I love this post! Marilyn, it is so true, gotta have as much of the bad thing as possible because it will be missed so much. Went to a great Step 7 meeting last night, character defects. Step 7 for me is that “pray to God but row to shore” step where I ask to have defects like procrastination removed but I also do my part by deciding not to procrastinate when the temptation is strong. Or the fear of imperfection holds me back from doing/starting/trying. Today I can be wrong, I can be the dumbest/weakest/least skilled person in the room and it is ok. Absolutely freeing place to be. And loads more fun!

    • Marilyn
      Jan 10, 2017

      Great to hear from you! And you love it because it reminds you of the old YOU, right? We are similar in our addictive behavior… Is not going to the gym a defect? And yes, the Lord helps those who help themselves…

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    carlee whitcome
    Jan 9, 2017

    How come you're not drinking?
    Because at least I'm not wasting my money on drugs, so I can "donate" it to the Y.
    Oh dear, I don’t even want to think about how much I have spent on my FAMILY membership to the Y this winter since the last time I showed up. I have it as a cure for stuck-in-the-house-can’t-go-to-the-beach winter blues, but I have been mostly stuck in the house anyway. At least I have had some appreciation that it was an OPTION some days. That moment of thinking “well I could go to the gym if I get too down” is invaluable. Right? haha. Probably not really.

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    Who the hell has time to drink?
    Jan 9, 2017

    One of the great surprises of sobriety was stepping on my scale. Without changing ANYTHING in my eating habits, I’ve lost 25 pounds. Didn’t really need to lose that much, although was amazed to see my small-but-growing-pot-belly-which-I-assumed-I’d-have-forever….disappear! Even nibble on candy now and then, and have a Tic-Tac addiction…but gaining nothing?! Hate to find myself procrastinating about anything.

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