You probably don’t know this about me (unless you are Kim, Lauren, Jon Jon, my mom or Jonathan), but I say the above exclamatory sentence every, single year at this time. No matter how shitty my life has been or how seemingly fruitless my future. I always make the same proclamation on January 31st, “It’s going to be a GREAT new year! This is my year to shine!”
But I really mean it this year.
There is something to be said for unsubstantiated optimism I suppose… In years past I have labored under false expectations (or for many years, a holiday case of La Crema Chardonnay). The problem with false hope, is that by January 15th, you are already disappointed. Expectation for a fabulous New Year should really be coupled with a plan and some level of skill…
I am reminded of the road sign on I75 on the way to Helen, Georgia. There is an enormous picture of a craggy cliff and these huge hands clinging to its face. Its says, “LET GO. JESUS WILL CATCH YOU!” I hope you won’t think me blasphemous or pessimistic if I say, “Wait a minute… if I let go, Jesus is not going to swoop in like Batman and break my fall. I will plummet to my death. I am not buying this. Even in the metaphorical sense.”
I have learned so much in the past two years. I have learned that everything is not always going to be okay. I’ve learned that pride is the sin from which all others spring. I have learned that hard work is rewarded. I have learned that love and family and community can save a life.
I believe wholeheartedly in God, but I have also learned that when hanging from a precipice, a rope is better than a prayer.
Happy New Year Everybody! I LOVE YOU.
