Lauren says when I look at a group photo I only look at myself – everyone else can look like hunchbacks and I’m like, “GREAT photo!” But this is a good pic of Lauren and Kallie and me…
I was watching a video of myself giving a reading to a group of recovering alcoholics and therapists at Sanford House, and the only thing I could think of as I watched was, “I look kind of jowly…” When I told Kim this (and the fact that my glasses were a bit too Swifty Lazar) she said, “Mare, if you’re going to be out there, you have to stop worrying about being perfect and the way you look – I mean, you’re doing this to help people, right?”
Yes. But I’d like to be not-jowly while doing so…
I think I need to remind myself that what I am trying to do, is reduce the stigma of alcoholism; provide a template for those who are newly sober; encourage the drinking “fence-sitters” to temper themselves; and expose the underbelly of my addiction as an example that even the worst behavior can be atoned.
Warts and all, right?
Today I’m not drinking because I’m having a face lift this afternoon…
