I haven’t written or thought about The Bahamas much lately. I approach my memories about my time in the islands, the same way I approach the bathroom mirror when I have gained a bit of weight. Getting into the shower: the inevitable bright lights, the regret about that bag of chips. I squint and do a quick glance – not too much analysis.
I wrote an article for Sanford House about 100 Sober Things to Do in the Winter and in my research, I discovered that the color blue is associated with “calmness and serenity,” and it got me thinking about The Bahamas again. It’s been almost four years since I’ve been to Staniel Cay, and the photo above still gives me a punch in the gut feeling. Nostalgia? Longing? What could have been? I don’t know and as I mentioned, I really don’t want to analyze.
I know of at least six people who lived on Staniel when I did, who do not live there anymore. They can relate to what I am saying, because no one leaves The Bahamas without a good reason. No one gets up one day and says, “I am sick of all this. This snorkeling and laying about in chairs under azure sky… I want to go back to a place with traffic and seasons and I really want a To Do list…”
People leave The Bahamas (if they are not gainfully employed like my buddies who own Island Rentals ) because they have lost their good sense, or all their money or they have succumbed to temptation and become an addict or they just need to go home. Let’s think about that for a minute, now that I am looking in the mirror with a very bright light. Maybe it’s important to know when it’s time to go home: when it’s time to accept a good offer or one’s responsibilities.
The first definition of “responsibility” is: the state or fact of having a duty to deal with something or of having control over someone; authority, control, power, leadership. For most of my life I thought of responsibility as a burden. Huh. Responsibility is power and control. Fancy that.
It’s a beautiful day here in Grand Rapids. And it’s not like The Bahamas are going anywhere, right? I can always go back there on my paid vacation… I am looking at the color blue outside my window right now – it’s just tempered with the color white… The color white, by the way, is associated with “protection and encouragement”…
Today I’m not drinking because I am RESPONSIBLE (and in control, except I’m still not analyzing …)